Deadliv3443's Journals

I DON'T WANT TO............

I DON'T WANT TO BE ON MY OWN

I DON'T WANT TO LET YOU GO

I DON'T WANT TO KISS YOUR LIPS

I DON'T WANT TO FORGET OUR FRIENDSHIP

I DON'T WANT TO MISS A MOMENT WITH YOU

I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE THE END

I DON'T WANT TO HAVE A BROKEN HEART

I DON'T WANT TO BE ANOTHER GIRL THAT YOU DATED

I DON'T WANT TO BE PUSHED TO SIDE EVERYTIME YOUR FRIENDS COME ROUND

I DON'T WANT TO DIE

I DON'T WANT TO MISS YOU

I DON'T WANT TO REGRET ANYTHING I HAD WITH YOU

I DON'T WANT TO LOVE ANOTHER GUY BECAUSE I FEAR THAT THERE WILL NOT BE ANOTHER YOU

I DON'T WANT TO FEEL ALONE

I DON'T WANT TO HATE YOU WHEN YOU GO

answer it u mother fuckers teehee

answere ppl plz i would apresiate it if u did

1] Whats your Name?:

[2] Are we close?:

[3] What do you think of me?:

[4] Do you fancy me?:

[5] Would u kiss me?:

[6] Would you date me?:

[7] Describe me in 3 words?:

[8] If u Had Me for 30 Mins wat would you do?:

[9] What was ur first impression of me?:

[10] Do u still think the same?:

[11] What reminds u of me?:

[12] If you could give me anything what would it be?:

[13] How well do u know me? :

[14] What do u like best about me?:

[15] Ever wanted 2 tell me something u could'nt?:

[16] Could you ever love me?:

[17] Give me a nickname and explain why?:

[18] R u gona put this on ur blog and c wat i say bout u?:

[19] Anything 2 say b4 u go?:

SHE HOLDS IN HER HAND!!

SHE HOLDS IN HER HAND

A PHOTO OF THE OLD DAYS

SHE HOLDS IN HER HAND

A VALENTINE'S DAY CARD THAT YOU SENT HER

SHE HOLDS IN HER HAND

A BUNCH OF ROSES THAT WAS ON HER DOORSTEP JUST THE OTHER DAY

SHE HOLDS IN HER HAND

A PAINTING SHE PAINTED JUST FOR YOU OF AN ANGEL

SHE HOLDS IN HER HAND

HER HEART THAT YOU RIPPED OUT OF HER CHEST

EVEN THOUGH SHE IS DEAD

SHE HOLDS IN HER HAND

THE GUN THAT SHE KILLED YOU WITH

AND AS YOU FALL TO THE GROUND

HER LIFE LESS CORPSE FADES INTO THE BACKGROUND AND ALL YOU HEAR IS HER LAUGHTER

AS SHE WALKS AWAY FROM YOU

YOU DIE SLOWLY COS YOU ARE A MOTHER FUCKER!!

THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HER!!

THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HER

SHE'LL BE DEAD AND GONE

THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HER

SHE'LL BE IN A COFFIN

THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HER

SHE'LL BE IN HEAVEN

THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HER

SHE'LL BE COLD

THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HER

SHE'LL BE A CORPSE

THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HER

SHE'LL BE STANDING NEXT TO A SIGN IN HEAVEN SAYING " DUMPED AND MURDERED"

THE NEXT TIME SHE WILL SEE YOU IS

WHEN SHE COMES TO HAUNT YOU

THE NEXT TIME SHE WILL SEE YOU IS

WHEN YOUR SIX FEET UNDER, COLD, A CORPSE,

IN HELL STANDING NEXT TO A SIGN SAYING " MY EX CAME BACK TO HAUNT ME AND THEN MURDERED ME IN BED"

I'LL BE GLAD WHEN I AM DEAD AND GONE

UM HEY I AM SORRY IF THIS JOURNAL UPSETS ANY OF MY FRIENDS ON HERE BUT THERE IS SOMETHING THAT I NEED TO SAY YOU ALL.

THESE PAST FEW WEEKS HAVE BEEN A HARD AND DEPRESSING AND THERE HAVE BEEN TIMES WHEN I WANT TO KILL MYSELF AND MY FRIENDS SAT THAT I WILL GET THROUGH THIS BUT I DONT THINK I CAN NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I TRY I CAN'T.

BUT I THANK ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE SUPPORTED ME BUT I THINK IT IS TIME FOR ME TO GO AND BE EVEN MORE DEPRESSED.

AND THIS TIME HANA I CAN'T COME BACK.

I LOVE YOU ALL BUT IT'S NOT THE SMAE ANYMORE

DEADLIV3443 XOXOXOXOX

WHY

WHY DO I GET THE FELLING

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING YOU ARE CARVING YOUR EYES INTO MY HEAD

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING LIKE THE WORLD IS GOING TO END

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING THAT I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING THAT I'M LOST IN A WORLD OF MY OWN

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING THAT YOUR PULLING ME ALONG

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING THAT I WANT TO CUT

WHT DO I GET THE FEELING THAT I'M ON MY OWN

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING THAT I CAN'T SCREAM FOR HELP

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING THAT MY SUFFERING ISN'T ENOUGH

WHY DO I GET THE FEELING YOUR WATCHING ME DIE ON MY OWN

WHEN YOU SHOULD BE DYING WITH ME IN MY ARMS

CAN SOME1 TELL ME

CAN SOME1 TELL ME

WHY I AM SO NEGATIVE

WHY I HATE MY SELF SO MUCH

WHY I HAVE A WAY WIT WORDS

WHY I COMPLAIN ALOT

WHY I CANT THINK STRAIGHT

WHY I WUD DIE 4 SOME1

WH Y I CARE ABOUT MY SELF

WHY I DOUBT EVERYTHING I DO

WHY I LOVE THIS GUY

WHY I FIGHT

WHY I LIKE 2 BE RITE

WHY I FEEL SO TIGHT

WHY I CANT BE GOOD

WHY I CANT CHANGE MY WAYS

WHY I WUD LIKE 2 BE POSITIVE 4 ONCE IN MY LIFE

AIDEN LYRICS

She walks the line into her deathbed rings
I say she's all alone
Begging for forgiveness
I won't teach her to lie or make a plan
That clairvoyant stare and grin
God won't forgive me
for this I know
and tragedy unfolds tonight
So sever my skin apart
Take this sadness and close your eyes love

Hey, call the angels. This razor blade was meant for me
Hey, call the angels. We'll mutilate insanity

She cuts the blade although it's much to dull
I say she's all alone
Fighting for redemption
I know little pain, a little lust
I lose myself at night to feel the rush
of tearing my skin apart
Take this sadness and close your eyes love

Hey, call the angels. This razor blade was meant for me
Hey, call the angels. We'll mutilate insanity

Go deeper, I feel it
I see your ghost appear
Go deeper, I feel it
I feel you ghost appear
I will say goodbye tonight (We'll sleep forever)
Hold on, Hold on tonight love
We'll sleep forever
Hold on, hold on tonight love
We'll sleep forever
Hold on, hold on tonight love
Close your eyes

Hey, call the angels. This razor blade was meant for me
Hey, call the angels. We'll mutilate insanity

I CAN'T SLEEP

I CAN'T SLEEP COS YOU MAKE ME SPECIAL

I CAN'T SLEEP COS YOU R ALWAYS ON MY MIND

I CAN'T SLEEP COS I LOVE U 2 MUCH

I CAN'T SLEEP COS U MAKE FEEL LIKE THE ONLY 1

I CAN'T SLEEP COS U CATCH ME WEN I FALL

I CAN'T SLEEP COS U ALWAYS CALL

I CAN'T SLEEP COS U ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL TALL

AND WEN I DO SLEEP IT'S WEN I'M DEAD LYING NEXT 2 U HAND IN HAND

U LOOK AT ME AND I LOVE U

WE R 2 CORPSES IN LOVE IT DOESN'T MATTER IF WE'RE DEAD

IN THE END WE'RE 2GETHER THATS ALL THAT MATTERS

SORRY

THIS JOURNAL IS TO EVERYBODY WHO CARES ABOUT ME ON BUZZNET

MOST OF YOU HAVE HEARD THAT I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF ON SUNDAY DUE TO LIFE GETTING TO ME REALLY REALLY BADLY. I WOULD LIKE TO ACKNOWLEGDE THAT MOST OF YOU ARE 100% BEHIND ME ON A SPEEDY RECOVERY I WOULD LIKE TO THANK HANA GABI HELEN AND NATALIE FOR BEING WITH ME AND ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE ON BUZZNET. MOST OF UNDERSTAND ME AND PTHERS DON'T

I REPEAT THIS IS NOT A SUICIDE LETTER SO DON'T THINK I'M GOING AWAY AND IF ANY OF YOU NOTICE THAT I AM DEPRESSED PLEASE PLEASE CHEER ME UP BEFORE I KILL MYSELF FOR GOOD